Its a beautiful autumn's day. I would love to be anywhere but here sitting in my office listening to our junior band horn section try and work through a new piece of music.
Anyway, I need to test some stuff to do with work. One of our Year 4 class blogs is having trouble with comment moderation so I've turned mine on to check to see if its blogger in general or something to do with their set up. So please leave me a comment so I can check this.
The basic rule of PC troubleshooting is to look at the big picture rather than focusing on the minute when initially trying to solve the problem. A good philosophy in life don't you think?
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Struggling
These last couple of days I've felt myself being beaten up with sadness and grief. We are now at the time of year where our baby would have been born.
When I say beaten up, its because there are times I feel overwhelmed with despair and as I come through the other side of a particular episode it feel just like I've done 10 rounds with Mike Tyson.
I didn't think it was going to be this hard. I thought the majority of my distress had passed and I was now at the stage where there was only sadness and regret for what could have been.
I guess I was wrong.
Yesterday I found myself in absolute distress at work. I won't go into details but the unthinking actions of a colleague caused me deep anguish. It wasn't intentional. She didn't know, no one knows but it took a lot for me to return to my office where I could cry in private. After quite a bit of time where I just felt grief crashing in over me, I had the need to find some peace. I remembered the Light A Candle site, hosted by my employer. So I stopped, lit my candle and will let it burn for 7 days. Its here if you would like to view it along with the prayer I chose to go with it. Perhaps you will pray the prayer with me and I hope this new wave of grief will pass soon.
Thanks for listening.
When I say beaten up, its because there are times I feel overwhelmed with despair and as I come through the other side of a particular episode it feel just like I've done 10 rounds with Mike Tyson.
I didn't think it was going to be this hard. I thought the majority of my distress had passed and I was now at the stage where there was only sadness and regret for what could have been.
I guess I was wrong.
Yesterday I found myself in absolute distress at work. I won't go into details but the unthinking actions of a colleague caused me deep anguish. It wasn't intentional. She didn't know, no one knows but it took a lot for me to return to my office where I could cry in private. After quite a bit of time where I just felt grief crashing in over me, I had the need to find some peace. I remembered the Light A Candle site, hosted by my employer. So I stopped, lit my candle and will let it burn for 7 days. Its here if you would like to view it along with the prayer I chose to go with it. Perhaps you will pray the prayer with me and I hope this new wave of grief will pass soon.
Thanks for listening.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Where I am up to...
I'm starting to feel that 2009 was not meant to be my year.
It started out ok. My excess bulk was coming off, my fitness levels were coming up. Then June/July happened when discovered we had conceived then lost a much desired baby and I battled grief and depression. August wasn't much better when I came down with the worst case of the flu I can ever remember having.
My latest misadventure put me in hospital for 5 nights with gallstones. A condition I didn't know I had until I was woken at 1.30am on Sunday morning with the most excruciating pain I have ever experienced along with a number of other nasty side effects from blocked bile ducts. So right now I am recovering at home from a Laparoscopic Cholecystectomy (basically keyhole surgery to remove my gallbladder). I'm still not sure about this, there seems to be differing opinions on what the long term consequences of this are. So far my body seems to be adapting ok.
I'm hopefully that health wise this is the last 'fly in the ointment' moment. Will be nice to get back on track.
It started out ok. My excess bulk was coming off, my fitness levels were coming up. Then June/July happened when discovered we had conceived then lost a much desired baby and I battled grief and depression. August wasn't much better when I came down with the worst case of the flu I can ever remember having.
My latest misadventure put me in hospital for 5 nights with gallstones. A condition I didn't know I had until I was woken at 1.30am on Sunday morning with the most excruciating pain I have ever experienced along with a number of other nasty side effects from blocked bile ducts. So right now I am recovering at home from a Laparoscopic Cholecystectomy (basically keyhole surgery to remove my gallbladder). I'm still not sure about this, there seems to be differing opinions on what the long term consequences of this are. So far my body seems to be adapting ok.
I'm hopefully that health wise this is the last 'fly in the ointment' moment. Will be nice to get back on track.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Update
Despite everything that has gone on in my life over the past few weeks I've only put on less than a kg despite pretty much abandoning our diet.
I'm keeping that other blog (http://ankarli.wordpress.com/) running. Its purpose is different to this one but I am hoping it will help me come to terms with some of the tragedy we've had in our lives recently and to decide what's best for me. I remember writing a diary when I lost our first baby several years ago. I only deleted it in recent months. I really wish I had that again to remember.
Thank you to everyone who took the time to comment. It really helped. IYKIM.
I'm keeping that other blog (http://ankarli.wordpress.com/) running. Its purpose is different to this one but I am hoping it will help me come to terms with some of the tragedy we've had in our lives recently and to decide what's best for me. I remember writing a diary when I lost our first baby several years ago. I only deleted it in recent months. I really wish I had that again to remember.
Thank you to everyone who took the time to comment. It really helped. IYKIM.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Oh dear ...
Its been a while since I updated. Things are progressing nicely and I'm staring down another milestone.... 40kg in another 1.5kg. Its a pretty amazing number and I confess to enjoy watching peoples jaw drop when I tell them just how much I've lost (when they ask of course).
Another recipe share... herbed fish. This is great for frozen fish, so buy one of those 1kg bags of fish and defrost as needed.
Ingredients
1 tbl olive oil
1 tbl lemon juice
1 clove garlic
1 shallot (chopped)
1 tbl chopped dill as well as tbl of chopped thyme **
Mix ingredients together and smear over fish fillets.
Cook fish in frying pan until cooked.
Yum!!
** You know what its like when you chop fresh herbs. If you don't end up with a tablespoon it doesn't really matter. You could also substitute other herbs such as chives or coriander. Basically you're looking for something pungent.
Another recipe share... herbed fish. This is great for frozen fish, so buy one of those 1kg bags of fish and defrost as needed.
Ingredients
1 tbl olive oil
1 tbl lemon juice
1 clove garlic
1 shallot (chopped)
1 tbl chopped dill as well as tbl of chopped thyme **
Mix ingredients together and smear over fish fillets.
Cook fish in frying pan until cooked.
Yum!!
** You know what its like when you chop fresh herbs. If you don't end up with a tablespoon it doesn't really matter. You could also substitute other herbs such as chives or coriander. Basically you're looking for something pungent.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Inspired by ... (a goal)
Donna Downey. I'm not really into her style of scrapbooking and I admit sometimes her over the top style annoys me but I dropped into her blog this morning for a catch up and indirectly she reminded me of a goal I set myself last year.
The Gold Coast Marathon is on Sunday 5th of July. I am in no way ready for the Marathon, but they have a 7.5km walk I'd like to attempt. I can walk 5.5km in about 60min, I'd like to improve on that before July.
The Gold Coast Marathon is on Sunday 5th of July. I am in no way ready for the Marathon, but they have a 7.5km walk I'd like to attempt. I can walk 5.5km in about 60min, I'd like to improve on that before July.
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